*serious...need advice

**Ivramire** · 11-10-2007, 05:38 AM

What I am about to post is highly personal,....to be frank, probably inappropiate for a public forum, possibly life-altering(for me) and holds consequences that I am going to have to live with.

I have recently taken a very important test and received a score that exceeded my widest expectations. 99 out of a possible 100.

Because of this score my plans for the future have been drastically altered.
I had previously planned to attend the school that my girl-friend was attending, a well-established college that I would have been proud to attend.But this test has thrown a spanner in the works.

I now have to make the choice between attending the school that my gf attends or an even more prestigious school which will probably open more doors later in life.

The decision at first seems obvious.The better school where you will get a better education and thus be able to advance later in life.
It isn't so simple...I have known her since we were 5, friends since we were 6,
in a relationship since we were teens, and in all that time I have never been further than a 30 minute car-ride away from her.

We went to the same schools, went to the same classes, our parents are close-friends and have seen us together for a long time.She was the one who saw me through my parent's divorce and I honestly believe that I wouldn't have been the same person without her.Despite the length of time that I have known her it was only recently that we managed to see each other as anything other than friends and I am frankly very insecure.Most relationships like these are too good to be true, and I wonder mostly every day why someone like her is with someone like me.People tell me that I have to take more pride in what I've managed to do and to have more confidence in myself but in the face of something like this I have none at all.

I don't want to imagine any appreciable amount of time without her but I am genuinely torn between the two decisions.I have exhausted all possible means of help...close friends, my parents, her parents, everyone I know whose opinion I hold in regard.Now i'm asking here.This is my last resort before I consider all my options and I need the opinions of people who don't know me irl before I make a decision.