If this is a joke, >___> If this isn't, then D= Kurten, please don't be so rude ...
But do try finding a hobby? Something you're good at, something that you want to do. Something that'll make you like yourself =) I know that I'm really easy to please, so I try to get some fun stuff on my mind like playing Fiesta everyday and then do my homework so I can get good grades and also feel nice. I don't have much to relate to your experience, so I can't say much. But please stop hurting yourself if you are. =D
And kurten, please don't double post.
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And I actually find the forums a nice place to hang out. Nobody knows who I am and what I do, so it's a cool break for being constantly under judgement. Don't be afraid to vent out your anger. Kurten was being a little rude.
Stay maybe on forums, find a group that you like to talk to ^^ Or talk to your guildies about random stuff, lol. It just gets stress off your mind >__>