[Mindspank]

Man I find myself explaining myself alot.

**If you dont want to read the wall of text, here's the abridged version: Im a negative person, defined by negative events. Dont let my views turn into yours.**

I dont think that the entire server is full of crap. If I did I would go back to playing Battlefield 2. When I say I give up on people its more of an embelishment on how I actually feel. Fiesta operates alot like New York City. Alot of people running around doing their own thing. Some of them AMAZING people with shining personalities, alot of them filth and some just plain shit. What I mean by "Filth" is that while they have redeeming qualities (This ties into the expression I just made up just now "While you can always clean off filth, shit will always stink.") they have less than reputable means about doing things. I have met people in this game that were highly regarded as great people but were downright abbrasive when I met them. It all depends on the circumstances.

Your best friend might be someone elses enemy.

On a simmilar note dont let my stigmas and experiences DEFINE your overall opinion and views of the game or its players. People are here to draw their own conclusions and make their own friends while playing the game the way THEY want to play it. Just because the overall experience I have had with the community I play with has been negative does not necessarily mean yours will.

When playing a game with other people you are going to see the bad in people come out. Thats a given. And being that I am an overall negative person out of the game, I try to be as positive as I can but so much happens to me because I leave myself open that it just gives me a sour taste about the community in general. Alot of my negativity about its people is a byproduct of my own personal negativity twards life. When your a positive person, you tend to view life through rose tinted glasses. Well when your a negative person, you cant see life through your glasses because they are covered with shit.

On a side note. I was thinking about quitting. WAS. Too many people want me to quit. I had to remove myself from my guild because people were chain warring me. People tell me in whisper they want to slit my throat and kill my wife and kids. People dont like me. So in light of these facts, im not going anywhere. Because if they hate me so much, they will eventually quit because I wont. Im stubborn, negative and slightly optimistic. A sour mix but sometimes that sweet burst of optimisim at the end is worth it.

The only way people are getting rid of me is if I get banned, and I dont forsee that happening anytime soon.