[Ralath]

It didn't start out that badly. I was just incredibly nervous but I felt... somewhat confident; that I had a good of a chance as anyone else.

I feel like I had put forth so much effort and interest that wasn't returned. And now I'm kind of hurt.

Even though I shouldn't be.

*sigh*

I just want to go to sleep and not wake up until a few days later.

=/

I wonder how long I'll keep playing the "what-if" game with myself. =/