[booyah8876]

If you must know... which I don't know who will...

First off, parents want a divorce. That's already killing me inside as it is, so yeah... Then my Dad calls me from Cali, to inform me that my relatives that lived in Illinois died. I haven't spoken to them in forever because of the reasons given in the story. Career, school, not girls... just girl. And on second look... the name of the guy that died isn't right... but pretty close. I was more thrown off by Jack in there, and the other name being so close, I think I just read it wrong.

On top of that, since my parents won't even let me out of the house, I feel trapped. I'm not allowed to go outside and have friends, which is why I spend 99% of my home time on my laptop. Many times has my step-dad (Jack) told me that I need to get a new hobby. I simply told him that he needs to inform his wife of that.

I feel neglected because they're always fighting. I feel unloved. I have no friends, I have no life, and because of that, I'm looking pretty much desperately for someone to love me.

Mazlo's pyramid of needs is 100% true.

I feel as if I'm not loved, therefore I'm putting of self-improvement and looking to be loved.

I've truly let myself go, and as many times as I tell myself that I'm going to get better... all I look for is someone to talk to, and for someone to love me.

Since I'm not going to find that anytime soon... happiness is a ways down the road.